&the greying vision

Tuesday, November 13, 2007 2:59 AM

alrights.
the fact that i just woke up, i should be more awake and usual.
-.-
but still, i feel like sleep.

13 november marks the end of the agony for the rascals. (:
maybe it's not an agony afterall.
it somehow means another journey of them starting.
a journey for them to grow up.
upon recieving john's msg, i'm quite happy.
haha!
but too bad, i'm too busy with school work. :\

many research are to be done by thurs.
but yet i have yet to touch on any of them.
NONE.
this is the result of last min work. ):

have been listening to jay's new album. (:
oh man.
his songs are woot! (: fab. fantastic.
ok, not really the whole album, but for some of the songs.

tired.
my energy are using very fast.
sleep.
i dont seems to get enough of them.

the body has been failing on me.
recurring headaches are back.
medicine, i refuse.
i don't want to be dependent on them.
yet, they are unbearable.

interesting fact to share.
after doing the DiSC personality test, i realise i'm a pure I person.
High I person.
it simply means you're very very very friendly.
an example from the lecturer will be:
"if a high I person sits beside you in a mrt from one end to the other, from a total stranger, you will know his/her life story by the end of the journey."
PLEASE LOR.
i'm not so friendly.
i'm selectively friendly.
hehehe.

doubt this word has been in my world for quite a long time.
it said to have a long term goal, thus i will work for it.
long term goal?
for a secondary student, it would be easy.
it's just deciding what you want to do and acheive at the end of you secondary school life.
for a poly student, it wouldn't be as easy as it is.
it's a decision that MAYBE affect your whole life.
at this point of time, i'm not determined to enter a university.
yet at this point of time, my future is vague.
when i ask them, what you want to be in the future.
they would give me an answer immediately.
somehow, i miss the old cindy
she's so confident of herself.
she knows what she want in her life.
she could say she want to work in a hotel in the future in the past
i reinstate, in the past.
i guess, this cindy wouldn't be back in a short term.
it is no doubt that she enjoys her life as a poly student now.
but let's face the fact.
how many times can a person become a poly student?
it's reality.
there's nothing we can do to change it.
it's hard for one to submit to the reality.
but what else can we do but to accept?
work hard?
working hard doesn't seems to be a bad idea.
but how many actually succeed?

to: you-know-who-you-are.
darling, you know opportunities are hard to come.
cherish it when it come knocking to your door.
i don't wish to see you regrets after everything's gone.
you know it hurts me seeing this happening to you?
it really hurt me utterly.
i dont wish you to be in such a state.
as i've said, i'm glad you would tell me those this.
continue to keep it up alright?!
i seriously dont mind it.
you know that, don't you?
if you're feeling tired, tell me.
if you're feeling down, call me.
i'll be there for you.
you know i cant meet up as much when those irritating projects come in real hard on us.
but i'm still concern for you.
you said, don't bottle things up.
so tell me. (:
i can't bare to see you suffer alone.
WITH LOVES,
yours truly.

yours truly.

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